Late night thoughts

It's late. As you can see from the time when this post is made.

I've been having these late nights, funny how I procrastinate even more during holiday time, even though i have nothing to do.

Late nights mean deep thoughts, as usual.

I have been thinking.

Sometimes the comfortable route seems too good to be real.

And the inner fear takes over, what if all this doesn't go as planned, what if, i'd hoped too much and get disappointed in the end.

There are so many what if's, I don't like uncertainties, my natural response was to avoid failure, and to do so i opted to run away. If I don't have it in the first place, I will never lose it. 

But do I really want to run? I have worked so hard for this, come so far. Right now, it feels so comfortable to just stay at where I am, staying on track is my comfort zone.

But can my comfort be secured?