It's that time of the year again to make new year resolution and to reminisce this year that is coming to an end.
This year, we have yet again experienced so much, we went on our belated honeymoon early in the year, spent new years in macau travelling back to hongkong and getting stuck in sea of people, then headed of to Europe and UK in Jan. When we came back in Feb, i found my first full time pharmacist job after doing a few locum shifts in Auckland. We moved to Whangarei and started a new life up here, meeting new friends, trying out new activities like archery, going on walks and even getting lost in the woods and had to ring 111 search and reacue to help us. It has been a great experience and journey, i am actually feeling sad this year is ending in a couple of hours time. The last 2 years have been amazing, i look forward to what is coming next year.
I had to look back at my 2013 post to remember what my new year resolution was, surprisingly it was only to find a full time job that i am happy working at, guess what, that was achieved very quickly into the year as i found a job in Feb. Although this job has its work drama just like any other jobs, I actually achieved alot, got my first pay rise 6 months after starting and working as a charge pharmacist now. People managing is not easy but i have learnt and grown so much.
For this year's resolution, i just want 2015 to be a healthy year, let it be a year of fitness and good health!
31.12.14
21.10.14
Life and its uncertainties
Just as I thought I was not going to blog anymore..
The future seems so uncertain at the moment, I thought I knew what I wanted in life and have my life planned out. Now that we are both living comfortably, with stable jobs and income, I guess the next thing to do is to think what to do next.
The biggest question is, where am I going to settle? Should I stay in Whangarei? Move back to Auckland? Move to New Plymouth like I initially planned or move to OZ?
Moving town again sounds like a fresh start all over again, it is exciting yet challenging at the same time. There is always that 'what if' at the back of my mind, what if I don't like living in the place I choose to settle, what if things don't work out as planned, what if i'm better off staying at where I am now. How do you decide on where to live when you are considering places you have never lived before? There are good and bad things about each places, how do you justify what is a rational decision? How do you prioritise?
The next biggest question is when do kids come in the picture? And where do I raise them? And how do I raise them? I guess that is what everyone expects us to do next, and conversations with friends now involve babies and kids, but am I ready to be a mum? It's a life changing decision and I want to make sure I do it for myself and my family, not because of peer and parent pressure. I know it would be lovely to have a baby now, and it would also be perfect at my age. The plan was to have a child before i turn 30, but I do not want to raise a child not knowing where I am going to be living in the next five years. Call me perfectionist but I don't feel comfortable having a baby with so many uncertainties going on, not forgetting the big question about how to raise them? I have absolutely no idea how to raise a child and the thought of being a bad parent puts me off.
And the question about career comes into play, I'm lucky enough to have a job with people I enjoy working with and have potential to grow professionally, but there is also a possibility of finding a better job, with higher pay, and more opportunities somewhere else. Do I want to start my own pharmacy business or stay as an employee? It is a risky time to start a new pharmacy at the moment, because of the law and funding change, I personally do not think that owning a pharmacy business today is as profitable as 10 years ago, although the fact of being my own boss is sweet, realistically speaking it is a big risk to take at this time of my life. I might be better off working for someone else knowing that my job will be stable. Talking about being a parent, I wouldn't be able to devote myself fully to my child if I do venture into a new business right now.
I guess you can only plan this much for life. I have no idea what my plan for the next few years is. And I do not like knowing that there is nothing I can work towards to. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow with a clear mind of exactly what I need to do. At the moment, a husband, a dog and a cat in Whangarei is good enough.
The future seems so uncertain at the moment, I thought I knew what I wanted in life and have my life planned out. Now that we are both living comfortably, with stable jobs and income, I guess the next thing to do is to think what to do next.
The biggest question is, where am I going to settle? Should I stay in Whangarei? Move back to Auckland? Move to New Plymouth like I initially planned or move to OZ?
Moving town again sounds like a fresh start all over again, it is exciting yet challenging at the same time. There is always that 'what if' at the back of my mind, what if I don't like living in the place I choose to settle, what if things don't work out as planned, what if i'm better off staying at where I am now. How do you decide on where to live when you are considering places you have never lived before? There are good and bad things about each places, how do you justify what is a rational decision? How do you prioritise?
The next biggest question is when do kids come in the picture? And where do I raise them? And how do I raise them? I guess that is what everyone expects us to do next, and conversations with friends now involve babies and kids, but am I ready to be a mum? It's a life changing decision and I want to make sure I do it for myself and my family, not because of peer and parent pressure. I know it would be lovely to have a baby now, and it would also be perfect at my age. The plan was to have a child before i turn 30, but I do not want to raise a child not knowing where I am going to be living in the next five years. Call me perfectionist but I don't feel comfortable having a baby with so many uncertainties going on, not forgetting the big question about how to raise them? I have absolutely no idea how to raise a child and the thought of being a bad parent puts me off.
And the question about career comes into play, I'm lucky enough to have a job with people I enjoy working with and have potential to grow professionally, but there is also a possibility of finding a better job, with higher pay, and more opportunities somewhere else. Do I want to start my own pharmacy business or stay as an employee? It is a risky time to start a new pharmacy at the moment, because of the law and funding change, I personally do not think that owning a pharmacy business today is as profitable as 10 years ago, although the fact of being my own boss is sweet, realistically speaking it is a big risk to take at this time of my life. I might be better off working for someone else knowing that my job will be stable. Talking about being a parent, I wouldn't be able to devote myself fully to my child if I do venture into a new business right now.
I guess you can only plan this much for life. I have no idea what my plan for the next few years is. And I do not like knowing that there is nothing I can work towards to. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow with a clear mind of exactly what I need to do. At the moment, a husband, a dog and a cat in Whangarei is good enough.
15.10.14
I have not forgotten this space
Haven't been blogging for so long, I am so tempted to end my blog for good. However, something tells me I will want to come back and post things someday. Sorry for neglecting this space, I may not be updating as often but I have not forgotten this space.
Frank's 30th coming up this Saturday, the whole family is coming back from Oz to celebrate, it's gonna be a great weekend!
Frank's 30th coming up this Saturday, the whole family is coming back from Oz to celebrate, it's gonna be a great weekend!
5.9.14
Post birthday post!
So I fell sick about 3 weeks ago and I stopped my 3 times a week pilates. Laziness got into me...
I should be really get back into it.
My birthday was great, we had thai massages and yummy degustation! 27 now!! getting close to thirty!!
Got a pay rise the other day, makes my day since i only started for less than 6 months! Boss seems to be real happy with my progress, she told me she was really impressed with what i've done and how well i fit in. I haven't had such good compliments before, knowing that you are doing something right feels great!
Spring is here, means more sunshine! yay! Going to start running again, we missed the marathon sign up date but we can always start training for next year!
Sorry for ignoring you blog for so long.. life has gotten in the way :)
I should be really get back into it.
My birthday was great, we had thai massages and yummy degustation! 27 now!! getting close to thirty!!
Got a pay rise the other day, makes my day since i only started for less than 6 months! Boss seems to be real happy with my progress, she told me she was really impressed with what i've done and how well i fit in. I haven't had such good compliments before, knowing that you are doing something right feels great!
Spring is here, means more sunshine! yay! Going to start running again, we missed the marathon sign up date but we can always start training for next year!
Sorry for ignoring you blog for so long.. life has gotten in the way :)
16.7.14
Finally, pilates!
I'm focusing at living a healthy lifestyle at the moment. I've been trying to exercise atleast 30 minutes a day, 4 days a week, so far it's going good and I can see some changes starting to appear in my body. I'm not trying to change how I look, although I do like to firm up that belly fat, I'm really just trying to be more fit and healthy. I guess hearing stories about parent's generation getting sick is making me feel nervous about my health, sure want to stay healthy when i'm old! So pilates and badminton here I come~ Would love to pick up swimming again but that will have to wait till summer is back.
2.7.14
It's that time of the year again
I used to dislike winter, but having somebody to snuggle with at cold winter nights is a luxury, makes you enjoy and appreciate the coziness on winter nights :)
16.4.14
Rainy windy night
So we went to Auckland on Tuesday night because Frank had a scheduled electrophysiology study on his heart. After a few doctors and specialist visits since the end of last year, we finally found the cause of his ocassional palpitation and one incident of dizziness. He was expecting to do an ablation on his heart today but during the electrophysiology study, the doctor reckons his heart was normal enough and he didn't need the ablation done. He was hospitalised for a whole day after the procedure and could not come back to Whangarei with me. Too bad I had to work tomorrow so I had to come back alone, it was quite a scary drive back because the rain and wind was terrible and I was driving in the dark for 3 hours, with Pinky in the car with me. Frank is usually the driver and I am not used to driving long distance alone.
Poor hubby was in so much pain at the area of insertions after his procedure. He also had an episode of low blood pressure and almost fainted at the hospital. Thankfully we now know that his heart is normal and he does not have any increased risk of getting arrhythmia in the future. He is now safely discharged and resting at home with my parents. Guess I will be spending my coming Easter long weekend in Auckland.
I was having sleepless nights about this and was trying really hard not to think too much about it. Thankfully it is now all over and I know my hubby is fine.
That was a big reminder about how we take things for granted all the time. You can never give too much love and kisses to your loved ones, especially the ones you see everyday.
Poor hubby was in so much pain at the area of insertions after his procedure. He also had an episode of low blood pressure and almost fainted at the hospital. Thankfully we now know that his heart is normal and he does not have any increased risk of getting arrhythmia in the future. He is now safely discharged and resting at home with my parents. Guess I will be spending my coming Easter long weekend in Auckland.
I was having sleepless nights about this and was trying really hard not to think too much about it. Thankfully it is now all over and I know my hubby is fine.
That was a big reminder about how we take things for granted all the time. You can never give too much love and kisses to your loved ones, especially the ones you see everyday.
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