18.1.16

2016 New Year resolution


I finally have some time to sit down and sort my computer out. I officially started my maternity leave!
For the past few years I have been doing new year resolutions every year, this year it comes 18 days late but it's better late than never.
I would like to keep this year's resolution simple just like all other years, since I am expecting, let this year's resolution be that I can learn to be a good mother and hopefully motherhood goes smoothly for me.
Our baby is due in 4 weeks, but really he can come any time from now.
Since I started my maternity leave, I can finally do a big clean of the house and do all final preparation for our baby's birth.
Last year's resolution was to have a healthy year, I think I achieved it, I picked up a lot of sports, running, badminton, pilates, archery. However I had to stop all activities when I was hit by morning sickness. Being sick and tired all the time was really hard, thankfully it got better after 16 weeks.
Having said that, working full time plus over time all the way through pregnancy wasn't easy either, when I come home from a full day of work, it was almost impossible to do anything else, so my list of cleaning and tidying up just kept piling up, until now when I finally have some time off before the baby comes. Getting pregnant was actually also one of my secret new year's resolution last year, I didn't want to put it down on blog because I didn't want to jinx it. Thankfully we are blessed by this growing baby inside me, and hopefully we will be a family of 3 soon.
Becoming parents still seems foreign to both of us, I am excited and nervous at the same time, so many questions and why don't babies come with a manual? But at the same time, I cannot wait to see what my son looks like, is he going to look like a mini Frank? Or is he going to have more of my features? Is he going to be an easy baby or is he going to be a little rascal?
I guess that is part of being a parent, you just have to learn to adapt and I am sure however he turns out to be, we will love him unconditionally.
Baby has got a name, which will only be revealed when we meet him.
Hopefully he stays put inside mummy for a little while more, so that mummy can get all the stuff done at home. Better go and hang all the baby clothes now. Till then.

20.12.15

8 year anniversary

Can't believe its been so long since I blogged. This year has been yet again another year filled with excitement and new experiences, just when I thought it cannot get any better, we find ourselves more things to look forward to.

I've been meaning to update this blog but life has been so different lately, I have been so tired lately, its not easy to do anything with the amount of energy I have these days.

Anyway, 8 years ago I went on a first date with Frank, and now we are married and expecting our first baby together due in 2 months. How time flies and how life has changed for us.

Blog more soon hopefully, can barely keep my eyes open.

I love you Frank, happy anniversary (yesterday) and yes we both got too busy and forgot to celebrate, looking forward to many many more happy years with you. This year is probably the last year we will celebrate/remember this anniversary date because once the baby comes we will be too busy. Let's just stick to marriage anniversary from now ay. Sweet dreams.

25.3.15

My first promotion

So it's been one year since we moved to Whangarei.
I have been working in the same job ever since we moved up.
Last week, I got my first promotion to become the dispensary manager.  It's going to be a new challenge. I'm a little nervous about the new role and expectations, especially since I only have 1 year experience, but I gladly accepted the offer and took the challenge. I guess everything works out for my career afterall, moving away from Auckland was a good move. When I first started in this company, I thought that since this company is so big with so many people already in the higher managing role, i will not get the chance to move up. However, I guess my hard work was noticed in the end.

On a random note, Frank and I were talking about whether we are a dog person or a cat person. I still think I am a dog person although I do love cats a lot too. It's hard to choose between them because they are so different. It all comes down to which pet suits our lifestyle more. Growing up, I've always imagined myself having dogs when I grow older and have my own home. I wanted my kids to grow up with animals, and teach them how to love animals the way I do.

However, I now understand why it was always so hard to convince my parents to buy us a dog. It's the commitment involved, not just the caring of them, but the time we need to provide for them. I don't want to be one of those parents who would not let my children have pets, but now ever since i started working full time and moved out from my parents home, I find it hard to give time to Pinky. She had to be left alone at home all day. I feel like we are neglecting her, and she deserves a lot more time and love from us. but with full time work commitment, it is very hard. She was so used to having someone at home all the time, and now being left alone home all day makes her depressed and anxious.

My dream of having another family dog when i have a family is probably not going to happen, because I think even when we have kids I would want to eventually go back to work, and that means no time for pets. I do not want to do the same thing to another dog, leaving them more than 8 hours home alone during the day. Unless ofcourse, I become a housewife, even then it doesn't necessarily mean i'll have the time for both kids and pets.

On the other hand, Cody is so much more independent, although he also seeks attention at night when we come home, he is so much easier to look after attention wise. Me being an animal lover, i cannot see myself growing old without any pets, so we might have to stick to having cats instead. Let's hope our allergies don't get worse.
My babies are not getting any younger, Cody is turning 9 this year, and Pinky is turning 8. We will keep doing our best to keep them safe and happy, and hopefully they will stay with us for much longer.

31.12.14

2014

It's that time of the year again to make new year resolution and to reminisce this year that is coming to an end.
This year,  we have yet again experienced so much, we went on our belated honeymoon early in the year, spent new years in macau travelling back to hongkong and getting stuck in sea of people, then headed of to Europe and UK in Jan. When we came back in Feb, i found my first full time pharmacist job after doing a few locum shifts in Auckland. We moved to Whangarei and started a new life up here, meeting new friends, trying out new activities like archery, going on walks and even getting lost in the woods and had to ring 111 search and reacue to help us. It has been a great experience and journey, i am actually feeling sad this year is ending in a couple of hours time. The last 2 years have been amazing, i look forward to what is coming next year.
I had to look back at my 2013 post to remember what my new year resolution was, surprisingly it was only to find a full time job that i am happy working at, guess what, that was achieved very quickly into the year as i found a job in Feb. Although this job has its work drama just like any other jobs, I actually achieved alot, got my first pay rise 6 months after starting and working as a charge pharmacist now. People managing is not easy but i have learnt and grown so much.
For this year's resolution, i just want 2015 to be a healthy year, let it be a year of fitness and good health!

21.10.14

Life and its uncertainties

Just as I thought I was not going to blog anymore..

The future seems so uncertain at the moment, I thought I knew what I wanted in life and have my life planned out. Now that we are both living comfortably, with stable jobs and income, I guess the next thing to do is to think what to do next.

The biggest question is, where am I going to settle? Should I stay in Whangarei? Move back to Auckland? Move to New Plymouth like I initially planned or move to OZ?

Moving town again sounds like a fresh start all over again, it is exciting yet challenging at the same time. There is always that 'what if' at the back of my mind, what if I don't like living in the place I choose to settle, what if things don't work out as planned, what if i'm better off staying at where I am now. How do you decide on where to live when you are considering places you have never lived before? There are good and bad things about each places, how do you justify what is a rational decision? How do you prioritise?

The next biggest question is when do kids come in the picture? And where do I raise them? And how do I raise them? I guess that is what everyone expects us to do next, and conversations with friends now involve babies and kids, but am I ready to be a mum? It's a life changing decision and I want to make sure I do it for myself and my family, not because of peer and parent pressure. I know it would be lovely to have a baby now, and it would also be perfect at my age.  The plan was to have a child before i turn 30, but I do not want to raise a child not knowing where I am going to be living in the next five years. Call me perfectionist but I don't feel comfortable having a baby with so many uncertainties going on, not forgetting the big question about how to raise them? I have absolutely no idea how to raise a child and the thought of being a bad parent puts me off.

And the question about career comes into play, I'm lucky enough to have a job with people I enjoy working with and have potential to grow professionally, but there is also a possibility of finding a better job, with higher pay, and more opportunities somewhere else. Do I want to start my own pharmacy business or stay as an employee? It is a risky time to start a new pharmacy at the moment, because of the law and funding change, I personally do not think that owning a pharmacy business today is as profitable as 10 years ago, although the fact of being my own boss is sweet, realistically speaking it is a big risk to take at this time of my life. I might be better off working for someone else knowing that my job will be stable. Talking about being a parent, I wouldn't be able to devote myself fully to my child if I do venture into a new business right now.

I guess you can only plan this much for life. I have no idea what my plan for the next few years is. And I do not like knowing that there is nothing I can work towards to. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow with a clear mind of exactly what I need to do. At the moment, a husband, a dog and a cat in Whangarei is good enough.

15.10.14

I have not forgotten this space

Haven't been blogging for so long, I am so tempted to end my blog for good. However, something tells me I will want to come back and post things someday. Sorry for neglecting this space, I may not be updating as often but I have not forgotten this space.

Frank's 30th coming up this Saturday, the whole family is coming back from Oz to celebrate, it's gonna be a great weekend!

5.9.14

Post birthday post!

So I fell sick about 3 weeks ago and I stopped my 3 times a week pilates. Laziness got into me...

I should be really get back into it.

My birthday was great, we had thai massages and yummy degustation! 27 now!! getting close to thirty!!

Got a pay rise the other day, makes my day since i only started for less than 6 months! Boss seems to be real happy with my progress, she told me she was really impressed with what i've done and how well i fit in. I haven't had such good compliments before, knowing that you are doing something right feels great!

Spring is here, means more sunshine! yay! Going to start running again, we missed the marathon sign up date but we can always start training for next year!

Sorry for ignoring you blog for so long.. life has gotten in the way :)