Excited it is December today!
18 days to our big trip!!
Malaysia - Hong Kong - United Kingdom - Europe
Start packing and counting down!
2.12.13
28.11.13
Facebook stalking
Got an unexpected friend request from an old school friend, ended up facebook stalking for half an hour, found more old school friends that i stopped keeping in touch with on facebook. I was being nosy and trying to see who elses in my year group got married, to my surprise, not many people were married. Instead, many of the couples i know who have been dating for years ended up single.
That made me think of how my life have changed since then. Who would've thought I would end up living here in New Zealand calling this my home, and meeting my amazing husband here.
Everyday i smile just thinking about how lucky i am to have what i have now. Life is full of surprises. I wonder how my life will turn out to be from now on. Who knows, I might end up in another part of the world in another 5 years time. Who knows.. :)
That made me think of how my life have changed since then. Who would've thought I would end up living here in New Zealand calling this my home, and meeting my amazing husband here.
Everyday i smile just thinking about how lucky i am to have what i have now. Life is full of surprises. I wonder how my life will turn out to be from now on. Who knows, I might end up in another part of the world in another 5 years time. Who knows.. :)
14.11.13
Mid Nov
Now that everything is back to ''normal'', i am slowly learning how to enjoy my study-free life again. I realise i have lost in touch with many friends, and don't really know how to socialise anymore :SSS
Next thing on the list: Plan Europe honeymoon trip!!! :D
Time flies, this year is almost over. 5 weeks to Christmas, 5 weeks to Malaysia :)
Next thing on the list: Plan Europe honeymoon trip!!! :D
Time flies, this year is almost over. 5 weeks to Christmas, 5 weeks to Malaysia :)
7.11.13
Finished intern assessment!
So FINALLY, the biggest day of my life (besides my wedding) the biggest day of my education/career life has come. I sat for my first and hopefully final intern assessment. The nerves was crazy but everyone else going through the same thing that day felt the same way.
One whole year of hard work has finally come to an end. I am still working for another month as an intern until I get my result. Fingers cross I will pass and this is it, end of my studying life and start of my career. Let's not jinx myself, let's keep waiting patiently for another month.
I have decided to do some cleaning up, there were still boxes of old stuff unpacked since we moved in 11 months ago.
I decided to start with my old memory box. I started collecting old cards and letters and little memorable ornaments since young, and this box has grown bigger and bigger through out the years. I have always wanted to clear it out, after all, they are what most would regard as junk. However no matter how many times i attempt to clear it out, i ended up sitting there looking at all the old cards reminiscing old memories for hours. And in the end put them all in the box and store them away.
Today, I made another attempt to go through them but again, it brought back so many sweet memories, childhood friendship, so many ''friends forever'' from various people that i no longer talk to these days, little notes here and there of silly nonsense conversations shared during school hours, old letters exchanged with cousins when we were young.
I even found my old primary report card, and realised i was actually a pretty dumb kid, getting 36 out of 50 in class. haha. These are things i made an effort to bring with me from Malaysia to New Zealand. Somehow it made it's way from my parent's house to me house. I wonder if i will bring it along to my next destination, or maybe someday, i will finally decide to throw them away and let those memories fade. After all, there's only so much junk a person can keep aye. Guess today is not the day for a clear out, maybe next time.
One whole year of hard work has finally come to an end. I am still working for another month as an intern until I get my result. Fingers cross I will pass and this is it, end of my studying life and start of my career. Let's not jinx myself, let's keep waiting patiently for another month.
I have decided to do some cleaning up, there were still boxes of old stuff unpacked since we moved in 11 months ago.
I decided to start with my old memory box. I started collecting old cards and letters and little memorable ornaments since young, and this box has grown bigger and bigger through out the years. I have always wanted to clear it out, after all, they are what most would regard as junk. However no matter how many times i attempt to clear it out, i ended up sitting there looking at all the old cards reminiscing old memories for hours. And in the end put them all in the box and store them away.
Today, I made another attempt to go through them but again, it brought back so many sweet memories, childhood friendship, so many ''friends forever'' from various people that i no longer talk to these days, little notes here and there of silly nonsense conversations shared during school hours, old letters exchanged with cousins when we were young.
I even found my old primary report card, and realised i was actually a pretty dumb kid, getting 36 out of 50 in class. haha. These are things i made an effort to bring with me from Malaysia to New Zealand. Somehow it made it's way from my parent's house to me house. I wonder if i will bring it along to my next destination, or maybe someday, i will finally decide to throw them away and let those memories fade. After all, there's only so much junk a person can keep aye. Guess today is not the day for a clear out, maybe next time.
3.11.13
TWO days?!
I lied. I do still freak out before exams. Only that this time it happens a lot later. 2 days to the big day.
I am feeling sick, losing appetite, feeling dizzy and unable to focus.
Sigh, please God let me get through this smoothly.
I am feeling sick, losing appetite, feeling dizzy and unable to focus.
Sigh, please God let me get through this smoothly.
28.10.13
I have evolved.
I remember sitting in the library by the window next to the heater on a cold winter night, studying hard and being anxious about not getting through third year.
I looked outside the window and saw people walking, relaxing and having a life. I told myself I need to get through this so that I can have a life too someday.
Then, it was all over, I have not just passed the toughest third year but also glided through forth year. Before I realised, it was the end of university life and into the working world.
The past 2 years have flown by just like that. In exactly 10 days time, I will be sitting for the biggest assessment in my life. That day, I will be getting up and head to work as usual, only that it's not at my usual working place but a simulated pharmacy in a hotel bedroom.
Never mind the nerves and anxiety, I know it is something I have to get through to get to my goals. I must say with all these years of experience, I am almost used to the pressure, i no longer freak out just before exams, crying by my desk thinking i am going to fail and lose everything.
I guess this is what working in the real world does to you, it makes you think outside the box. The big picture here is that there is no point getting all crazy over this assessment, everyday is an assessment in my line of work, i deal with patients everyday, i deal with potential life threatening scenarios everyday, theoretically i should be able to deal with the same scenarios too on the 6th of November. If i do muck up and had to be reassessed, i deserve it because i could've killed someone if it was a real life situation.
Having said that, looking at the big picture made me think. I suddenly realise that I am no longer a student, focusing just on passing my papers so i can move on the the next level. I am almost there, i am almost a registered pharmacist that i spent the last 6 years working my ass out to become. It did take me an extra year more than most people, but I am proud to say i tried my best all the way through and I am almost there.
Now that it is almost over, it felt like i was in a long dream all this time, and i am finaly awakening. That makes me think, what is going to happen after this year? I no longer have assessments to aim for passing. After this year, I will finally get what i have always wanted all these years of hardwork, i will have my life back. And then what?
I have to admit, I am no longer the same person I was 6 years ago when i first came to New Zealand. I am now a wife, living with my husband in a home we own. I had a goal to be a pharmacist and I am on my way there to achieve it. How I managed to juggle work and study and even planned a wedding while at university and got married in my first year of working, I don't know. But this is what my life is right now.
It's a mixed feeling, part of me feel happy that i have achieved so much in such a short amount of time. Another part of me felt like i have 'lost' those years of life because i dedicated all my time to achieve my goals. Now that it is almost over, I am actually a little afraid to move on to the next chapter. Things have changed, my life has evolved, and so have I.
On the side note, I am still surprised how the wedding is all over and I am now legally married for almost 7 months. I almost wish that i could slow down time, especially the part when i got married. Just so that i could relive the moment and feel myself walking down the aisle all over again. It all happened too fast, and there were so many things going on in my life at that time it almost 'diluted' the special moment of my wedding. This year is a big big year for me. And I really wish it ends just as well as it started.
I looked outside the window and saw people walking, relaxing and having a life. I told myself I need to get through this so that I can have a life too someday.
Then, it was all over, I have not just passed the toughest third year but also glided through forth year. Before I realised, it was the end of university life and into the working world.
The past 2 years have flown by just like that. In exactly 10 days time, I will be sitting for the biggest assessment in my life. That day, I will be getting up and head to work as usual, only that it's not at my usual working place but a simulated pharmacy in a hotel bedroom.
Never mind the nerves and anxiety, I know it is something I have to get through to get to my goals. I must say with all these years of experience, I am almost used to the pressure, i no longer freak out just before exams, crying by my desk thinking i am going to fail and lose everything.
I guess this is what working in the real world does to you, it makes you think outside the box. The big picture here is that there is no point getting all crazy over this assessment, everyday is an assessment in my line of work, i deal with patients everyday, i deal with potential life threatening scenarios everyday, theoretically i should be able to deal with the same scenarios too on the 6th of November. If i do muck up and had to be reassessed, i deserve it because i could've killed someone if it was a real life situation.
Having said that, looking at the big picture made me think. I suddenly realise that I am no longer a student, focusing just on passing my papers so i can move on the the next level. I am almost there, i am almost a registered pharmacist that i spent the last 6 years working my ass out to become. It did take me an extra year more than most people, but I am proud to say i tried my best all the way through and I am almost there.
Now that it is almost over, it felt like i was in a long dream all this time, and i am finaly awakening. That makes me think, what is going to happen after this year? I no longer have assessments to aim for passing. After this year, I will finally get what i have always wanted all these years of hardwork, i will have my life back. And then what?
I have to admit, I am no longer the same person I was 6 years ago when i first came to New Zealand. I am now a wife, living with my husband in a home we own. I had a goal to be a pharmacist and I am on my way there to achieve it. How I managed to juggle work and study and even planned a wedding while at university and got married in my first year of working, I don't know. But this is what my life is right now.
It's a mixed feeling, part of me feel happy that i have achieved so much in such a short amount of time. Another part of me felt like i have 'lost' those years of life because i dedicated all my time to achieve my goals. Now that it is almost over, I am actually a little afraid to move on to the next chapter. Things have changed, my life has evolved, and so have I.
On the side note, I am still surprised how the wedding is all over and I am now legally married for almost 7 months. I almost wish that i could slow down time, especially the part when i got married. Just so that i could relive the moment and feel myself walking down the aisle all over again. It all happened too fast, and there were so many things going on in my life at that time it almost 'diluted' the special moment of my wedding. This year is a big big year for me. And I really wish it ends just as well as it started.
7.10.13
A month to go
A month from today, i will be free.
Sigh... the suspense and the never ending workload.
Sigh... the suspense and the never ending workload.
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