Focus focus focus

I need to focus!!!!!!!!!

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Birthday!

Happy 27th Birthday Baby
=)

Shattered

Others are not responsible for your lies. You can have 1 million excuses to do so, but really, lying is your personal choice, do not blame it on others.

It was NOT for me, it was for yourself.

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Exams in 2 weeks.
I am still depressed and very stressed.

It does not help hearing all this fun things other people are doing, while I am stuck here at one position trying to pass my exams. It takes a lot to try be happy for them.

I just hope this is over soon in a good way. And hope all this stress that has been built up does not make me mental.

It will be okay after exams, i kept telling myself.
But a lot of things cannot be reversed, such as the time that has passed.

I just want this to be over.

Hope that fades

I'm not going to lie.
I have been very depressed lately.

I have put back blogging many times, simply because i did not know how to express myself, and i didn't want people to get the wrong idea. I know i mentioned how i like to express my feelings here, but i also became a victim of the publicity. Sometimes, some things are best not mentioned.

A lot has been going on lately, namely approaching exams, failing assessments, family issues, life, friends, relationship, everything.

I am dying on the inside slowly.

The pressure in me is starting to show on my health. The stress inside me is pushing everyone away from me.
I am pushing everyone away from me.

Sometimes i wonder is everything really going to be worth it in the end?
Giving up so much for a damn degree. Will i really be happier when i finish? What does my future holds? Is this really what I wanted?
I did this to run away from my past, but will i ever be able to?
The more I try to act like everything's ok, the worse things become.

Long distance relationship, one after another time. Why did I even let it happen? Again? As if one failed experience wasn't enough.
Study.. passing exams.. what's all this for anyway?
Friends, competition, betrayal, lies... the more you know, the harder it gets.

I wish I could just give it all up.
I wish I could just end it all.

I'm all alone. I guess I was never not alone.

Trip confirmed!

In the midst of stress...
The exchange programme is finally finalized!
And I have literally just made the first payment to part of my trip fee!

I will be going to USA on New year's eve for 5 weeks! 2 weeks of holiday, 3 weeks for a student exchange programme.

The main city we are visiting includes LA - Las Vegas - Memphis - New York!!

Spending New year's in LA..and then Las Vegas.
Excited =D

Words that hurt

Some things are so simple but people just don't get.

Some words that are said can never be taken back.

One time after another, we take each other for granted.
Spreading untrue rumours, with the intention just to hurt..

Hurting someone who did nothing wrong,
hurting someone who gave her entire life to love you.

 
Does hurting someone really makes you happy?

I thought it only hurts you back in double?

Well, that's what I think anyway.
Maybe it's different for them..

Why they did it? I don't know.

I hope one day they realize.

I have given up.