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Bad result, bad assessment.

I have been lazy.

Enough said.

Alone

Have dispensing assessment tomorrow... feeling kinda lonely~
Please let this semester be over soon, in a good way.

Cody

I just had another placement today and went to one of NZ's biggest industrial manufacturing factory. Experience was okay but i would never want to work in a manufacturing company, I'm sticking to hospital or community. Quite looking forward to my hospital placement end of this year.

I was looking through my folders and found a few videos of Cody taken earlier this year. Pinky seems to always be in the lime light but Cody's actually quite a character in the family too. He is big for a cat, about the same size as Pinky but he has a healthy weight, although he used to be obese.

Cats are different than dogs, they both make good companions but are totally opposite. Once you understand their differences you get to see how interesting they can be.

So i took a break from studying and compiled a video of Cody. As you can see in the video, the way we play with Cody is different, no fetching ball and running in a big green field, more like standing there entertaining him with a string or his favourite lamb toy. The two black round objects that got Cody all curious were Frank's weights. He left it at my place the other day and when Cody came to my room, he got suspicious and acted funnily.

He mostly just sleep all day. He gets grumpy if you try to disturb his sleep. When he wants attention, he'll literally get it, by jumping up your desk and sit right in front of you, with his big bum blocking your screen. He either finally gets some patting, or gets told off, usually the latter. And as you can see, we like to push his buttons by 'bullying' him until he had enough.

Mid sem tests over!

Just had 2 tests today and an assignment due. Had another test early this week.

This week has been long, but i've never felt so relieved now that it's all over!!

More assignments due next week, but going home early after a big test feels so good!

=D *happy*

=D

MY silly fly~~

Rugby Worldcup opening

''There have also been reports of massive crowds at Albany bus station on Auckland's North Shore, with about 500 people waiting there.''

Luckily i decided to stay home.

Or i would have been stuck in the crowd.

Rugby world cup opening ceremony today.

And i wont be any part of it. Because i have tests.

Walk

Took Pinky to the school field we always go to.

Love quotes

Found this love quote..

''When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths.
For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away... ''

Sorry my posts has been all depressing lately. I'm trying to get myself motivated, to study, to get on with life, to do simple daily tasks. I'm sick of studying since years ago, obviously i'm doing this just to get by.

I used to think that I knew what i wanted for my future, i had it all planned, but i'm not so sure anymore. It may be the depression's back, the one i thought i got rid of long time ago, or it might be the bug in my brain that's growing again, the lazy procrastinator bug. I'm tired everyday, i get up in the morning, forgetting what my purpose is. I sit down all day staring at my books, how much can a person remember anyway.

I need a life, since ages ago. But i held everything back so that i could have a life in the future. I work hard, sacrificing fun and entertainment. But i'm only human, how long can a person live without socialising? Years passed, you then realize your anti-social behaviour has turned permanent. Then what? You realize the future you have been planning isn't going as well as you expected. Putting your life as a bet, and when you lose, what happens next?

I'm just being very lost at the moment, perhaps it's time for a walk with my dog. I need to snap out of this. There's too much negativity around me.
I'm all alone. Once again. Will i ever get out of this? Sometimes i just feel like giving it all up, pack my bags and leave. Go to a new country, a brand new place, and start it all over again.
But wait, we have done that, haven't we? And the problem was never solved.

Run run run away... is all we know to do.

My problem is, me.

Birthday Pictures

Mum made me tiramisu birthday cake

Birthday gifts from family!

Frank being 'tortured' by the spaceship massage chair

Favourite red roses

More birthday gifts!

Us

Back to studying

Yesterday was rough.

I guess this is the downside of falling in love.

You become so attached it almost hurt when you are apart.

Brand new week ahead, i should really be worrying about my studies instead, been slacking for the entire semester.

Wish me pass all my coming tests!

It'll be worth it in the end

Can't seem to get my mind off him.

I realize that this morning was the very first time i send someone off in the airport. I've always managed to avoid such occasions until now.

It's no wonder that this departure was so much harder to handle, compared to the many many ones before. Maybe because it's the longest time apart, or maybe it's because i actually saw him walked away.

The fight with my tears was hard.

The last kiss was even harder.

This week has gone by too fast. Seems like yesterday I was happily picking him up from the airport.

I now know how it feels to be the one left behind.

Got a template for my blog~

Got a template done, finally!

Used the same picture as old blog because i simply couldn't find any other one more suitable.

That particular picture was actually taken by Frank when we first started dating, while he was shopping for a box for me to keep little things i wanted to remember =)

Blog's a little pinkish.. i'll worry about that later when i get sick of it.

For now, it's pretty much set.

Next week on it'll be study 24/7.

Fun!

Not!

He is gone again

Here I am, sitting in his room. Looking at the spacious floor.

The tidy bed invites me for a quick nap, only that warmth is missing.

As i typed away on this antique computer, youtubing away.

An annoying trojan attacked me.

Took me an hour trying to remove it.

And finally had to restore the computer. Twice.

At times like this, the missing gets even more.

Yes, the rather unanticipated time is here.

He's gone again.

For a straight 3 months this time.

The longest ever for the record.

It's going to be a lonely Spring.

Musick Point

Went to Musick point with Frank on Friday. Weather and view was great for the start of spring.

Video was taken by his new phone =)